Party Hardy

So my birthday is pretty much on the horizon. I am throwing a party (along with my friend Brittany who's birthday is about a week or two before mine) that happens to be a Disney costume party. Right now I'm waiting for all of my costume parts to come in the mail then i'm going to get straight to work on it. I'm pretty stoked. Right now I can't say what I'll be but I will post a picture. Mara was going to be the Main Street Electrical Parade but we decided to do something easier (but haven't decided what that will be).

It keeps getting better

So I was right about one thing: God does have better plans for me. When one door closes another opens some say. As of the 30th of March I started dating a beautiful girl named Mara. So far she isn't crazy haha (trust me if you even knew about my last few...). It's only been a few days but it feels like months (weird I know). She makes me really happy I just hope she continues to do so and vice versa.

Just got the Avantasia CDs like two days ago. Soooo good. I have listened to nothing else since getting them. I also saw Clash Of The Titans a few nights ago. I enjoyed it but it doesn't even hold a candle to the original.

Lastly and most importantly today is the day of Jesus' ressurection. Pretty stoked about it. Without his sacrifice I (and everyone else) would be doomed for Hell. It almost sucks that I can't do anything to repay the favor to Him because there is no topping dying so humanity can be free of their sin. I need to stop taking this gift for granted. Thank you Jesus for being the man.

No-kyo

So I would like to give a short update on my disney audition. I got up bright and early and we left my house to Hollywood about 7 and got there at like 8:30. We signed in and sat around for a while and once it came time, they got us into lines and an older, square jawed japanese man taught us a dance routine. After multiple times practicing, they split us into groups of four to do it. Long story short I didn't make it past it. Who would have known a older, square jawed japanese man could do a fruity dance routine better than me? Oh well God must have better plans for me.

Big in Japan

So I'm pretty excited. Just got back from an awesome BBQ, preordered the new Avantasia boxset for 20 bucks opposed to 60, the Pokemon Silver remake comes out tomorrow (DONT JUDGE ME), and on the 22nd I'm doing TokyoDisney auditions. To be honest I doubt I'm going to make it even that deep into the auditions but its a nice fantasy.

The program would have me living in Japan for 6-8 months being paid like 560 a week, they would feed me and supply my own apartment. So basically getting a free ride in an expensive country while making money. Sounds like a deal to me. As for who I'd want to play I think I'd make an awesome Peter Pan, but I believe I'm much too tall. So besides that, I think I want to be Prince Philip. Out of all the Disney princes he is the MOST epic of all. So I'm praying that I will go far with that. Pray for me too guys! I really need this trip to get away from all this stress for a while and be able to not only have a blast, but focus on God away from my issues at home.

life is good

So here I sit in my headquarters, reflecting on the past month. Much has happened and the funny part is I didn't realize how much until now. I just got home from filming some Friends & Wellwishers right now (after maybe 1 or 2 smaller things we can finish the episode). We filmed it at a suite in the Grand Californian at Disneyland. Wred's friend has it for the day so naturally we took advantage.

I started school about a week ago and so far it's pretty chill. I'm taking Sociology and Human Sexuality online and taking Costuming and Basic Voice at the school (Goldenwest). One thing I was afraid about Voice (besides singing) was being the only guy. Turns out half the class are guys. It's Costuming where I'm the only guy. It's especially awkward because its a class of 12ish and we all sit around a large table and I just awkwardly spin in my chair looking off into space. At least I can say I'm the hottest guy in the class hahaha.

Work has been pissing me off as usual with the scheduling. At first they didn't give me any of the days I told them I can't work off. Then I told them again I can't work Tuesday or Thursday and they said ok. The past two weeks they have given me only Tuesday off (and it says "unavailable") so they took only half of my schedule into account. Grrr.

Right now I'm working on two scripts that I will hopefully use in the future. One I am writing on the computer and the other I'm writing in a notebook at school. I'd do them both on the computer but drama scripts are boring to write and when theres more interesting stuff to do like surf the web I do it. The computer one I'm writing is a fantasy called Dreamquest and the hand written like I stated before is a drama titled Copenhagen. I will not reveal any more than that.

The next few months are holding so much excitement I can't wait. So much is coming out! The new Eluveitie cd, the new Finntroll cd, Final Fantasy XIII (still kind of deciding on that), Pokemon Soul Silver (Silver was my favorite game as a kid so a remake is cool), Clash Of The Titans, and naturally Avantasia's "The Wicked Symphony" and "Angel of Babylon" albums. So stoked.

And a little footnote, Mass Effect 2 is absolutely amazing. If you haven't played it, do and reap all of it's delightfully entertaining benefits.

beggs and eacon

Since I have returned from camp things have been somewhat crazy. I had problems at home (that no longer seem a problem) and still struggling with other uncontrollable thoughts and emotions. Other than that I'm fine and dandy.

School books are stressing me out at the moment. They are much too expensive. I wish I could buy the previous editions but they frak with you by switching chapters around. Greedy publishers. I just with I had more money. Mass Effect coming out in a week doesn't help matters (though I think I'll hold off on it until books are out of the way even though it will be hard).

Speaking of which I got my Xbox back from repairs today. I was hoping they'd send me one with an HDMI port seeing as its been 2 years since they manufactured they without them. But naturally with my luck they had an HDMI-less one with my name on it :/. Though no complaints since I got a free repair and a free month of gold membership. No games to play online though.

I have also been looking at cars since my dads going to buy me one. So far I found a T-Bird I really like but am awaiting a response from the seller. Pretty excited. I will finally learn to drive that way I can finally get a real job (hopefully involving film).

The night we got back from camp I got a new tattoo. I'm really proud of it and thankful that I have such an awesome artist. Heres a picture

Apparently I love Zelda

Hunting High and Low

So right now I'm up in Lake Arrowhead with my church family having a fantastic time. We have an awesome cabin that blows last year's out of the water (no creepy paintings, fake jacuzzis, tables with naked women carved into them, or rooms we are not allowed to enter). So far I have indulged in games of Sweat, hot tubbing, delicious food, sledding in Big Bear, and some game in which they have to guess the person through descriptions. They are playing it right now but I am a little weary so have decided to stay out of the fray. Tomorrow morning we leave which is a total bummer because it feels like we just got here.

But the most important part of this trip is God. We are here to learn his word, to fellowship together, and speak to him personally. We have been having these awesome secluded sessions in which we just bask in His glory and hear what He has to say. The main theme had to do with humanity and sin so personally I needed to know what I was doing wrong. I know I am not perfect but I strive to be good enough to follow in the footsteps of Jesus. I can only hope so far I'm doing a good job of it (though I know I could be doing much much much better).

So here I sit on this here laptop de Cory listening to them making a ruckus upstairs hoping that the roof doesn't fall in on us (it sure sounds like it is). Wred is across from me working on drums and synths for Cory's music. Now he just went upstairs to take a break. I am alone. Listening to Sonata Arctica. Life is good.

Glædelig Jul

So Christmas was quite fruitful this year. I spent so much time worrying about what other people wanted and not what I wanted so my parents took matters into his own hands. They got me a laptop in which I am writing this blog. I'm pretty stoked about it cause now I can write scripts and stuff in the privacy of my own room. Lets just hope I'm not lazy.

Back in the real world, life has been confusing for me. I really hate having feelings. They love to trick me every chance they get and just make me feel miserable. The only things I like when it comes to having them if you know how people feel and it makes you not want to hurt them. Otherwise I kind of wish I was emotionless. No, I take that back because then I would not feel the joy of God. I just wish these certain feelings would leave me be. Here's to hoping.

Not much has changed.

Christmas is right around the corner. I have gotten my shopping done (at least I hope so) but I have no idea what I even want haha. But that isn't important. I want Jesus to have an awesome birthday. That is what matters.

I spent all of last week working which wasn't very fun. But this week is actually pretty free so I love it. Same with next week. But what to do with this free time? I finished The Office season 1-5. I have Netflix now so I'm probably going to find myself watching TV shows all day. It sucks.

Lately I've been finding myself in confusing emotional states. Its something I grow weary of but only God can help. I'm stoked for the Vision retreat that way I can find myself closer to him and his answers will be much clearer.

Sorry for the bland and boring post I haven't posted in a while but life is uneventful

Change

It's amazing how much can change in the blink of an eye. Sometimes it's almost impossible to wrap my head around it. I've been pretty private about it the past few days but I guess I could supply some insight.

I was "dating" a girl for a few weeks when the other night she decided she wanted to be with someone else more. It's weird for me to come out and say something like this seeing as I don't like to get too private on here but I had to write about it because it's been on my mind. Kind of sucks when someone chooses another over you. Almost as if you aren't good enough. But at the same time I realize we were two totally different people (with similar tastes but clashing personalities) so even as much as we could have wanted it to work, it wouldn't have. But it gives me hope. Hope that I will find someone more compatible and better for me. Someone who I don't have to sit there and question whether they still want to be with me or not. But now I don't think I'm ready to start anything.

My life is so far from being set right. Maybe I'll feel better about it when I start driving that way the world seems more accessible and I don't have to rely on the kindness of others. Once I drive I will be able to get a better job or maybe even attend a few more auditions. But fear holds me back. And laziness. I suppose the best thing I can do right now is pray that I find the courage to grow up. Change is a scary thing.

Well sorry for all that sappy stuff. To answer your question I'm fine and over that girl situation. I found myself flirting the next day haha. Which is weird because I usually only do that to Dalynn to make her uncomfortable. Seems like I'm growing some huevos.