Glædelig Jul

So Christmas was quite fruitful this year. I spent so much time worrying about what other people wanted and not what I wanted so my parents took matters into his own hands. They got me a laptop in which I am writing this blog. I'm pretty stoked about it cause now I can write scripts and stuff in the privacy of my own room. Lets just hope I'm not lazy.

Back in the real world, life has been confusing for me. I really hate having feelings. They love to trick me every chance they get and just make me feel miserable. The only things I like when it comes to having them if you know how people feel and it makes you not want to hurt them. Otherwise I kind of wish I was emotionless. No, I take that back because then I would not feel the joy of God. I just wish these certain feelings would leave me be. Here's to hoping.

Not much has changed.

Christmas is right around the corner. I have gotten my shopping done (at least I hope so) but I have no idea what I even want haha. But that isn't important. I want Jesus to have an awesome birthday. That is what matters.

I spent all of last week working which wasn't very fun. But this week is actually pretty free so I love it. Same with next week. But what to do with this free time? I finished The Office season 1-5. I have Netflix now so I'm probably going to find myself watching TV shows all day. It sucks.

Lately I've been finding myself in confusing emotional states. Its something I grow weary of but only God can help. I'm stoked for the Vision retreat that way I can find myself closer to him and his answers will be much clearer.

Sorry for the bland and boring post I haven't posted in a while but life is uneventful